College was the toughest point in my life because I knew that the reality of making it on my own was on the horizon, and yet I had absolutely no vocational calling. I considered my education to be the highest priority, clasping onto my grades like a security blanket, but I had to work to pay for my studies. Juggling a job while trying desperately to get a degree made me panic even more about being able to fully commit to either.
I worried so much that I developed a weak stomach. I started to feel frequent pangs of nausea and pain in my abdomen. I lost a ton of weight and when I went to the doctor, he diagnosed me with duodenal ulcers. I went to see a psychiatrist as the ulcers were being caused by stress, but after a month of treatment ...