I could ask you right now to put into words exactly how you’re tired or precisely how you’re stuck. And if I asked you to do that, do you know what you’d put on the page? Fairy tales.
To ask you to talk about your situation—with exacting, surgical precision—is just about as impossible as drawing a foot-wide circle on the ground and asking a skydiver to hit it.
First, you can never know your own motivations for certain, much less know the motivations of others.
Second, growing tired happens over time; to ask you to make a summarizing statement about a fairly long-standing, meandering problem would be ludicrous.
Third, to ask you to boil down your situation would rob you of the very way out of it: churning it ...