The meeting with Eric was coming up in two days. I sat in my office, debating what would certainly be one of the most important decisions of my career and life. Financial realization versus self-realization, perhaps. The implications, either way, could be enormous.

I wondered if accepting Eric's alluring offer might mean the end of my journey through the portals. I also thought about the nurse's comment about “wearing” acceptance and wondered if it meant embracing Damon for who he was and thus staying with the firm. It felt as if there was a blank sign above my head and my next move would determine what it said.

Karine walked by my front door, and I called her in. I asked her to close the door and have a seat. She did so quietly and waited for me to speak. “I have to say, this is one of the hardest decisions I've ever had to make. Eric presented an amazing opportunity to us. I think you know how much I care about you and that I consider you to be my friend. I hope you know that nothing would make me happier than to see you get all that you deserve. I'm also not a fool, and I would love to reap the rewards of the opportunity for myself.

“The thing is, Damon is a friend too. We've got a lot of history together, and I know that deep down, he's a lot like me, just a lost little boy wanting to be loved. Accepting him would be a big opportunity for me as well.

“I don't know what I should or will do. I guess I just wanted to let you know that either way it goes, I really hope you'll ...

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