We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.
—Paul the Apostle (2 Corinthians 4:8–9 NIV)
Trauma hurts. Tragedy, by definition, is painful.
After my diagnosis, I was put on a medical surveillance plan that involved routine blood tests and CT scans (see the Preface for the backstory). This meant that I could never get away from what happened. I couldn't escape it.
Every month, when I walked into the medical center to get blood drawn, I was reminded. My life at the time rose and fell in 30‐day increments. Every month before the blood draw, my stress levels would rise and I would become impatient ...